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Sooooo.... ive not written anything here for a while lol. mostly because ive been busy with work, (i always use that excyuse) heh, but really, im workin like from 5am till 7pm and the hours just get silly sometimes. and then theres my gf and friends. i guess im feelin a bit low atm cos i havbe a lot of debt and not much money. plus im tryin to get used to this keyboard that ive got, ergonomic on, and its really quite hard to get used to it because of the key placement, so excuse the typos in this post, the media buttons are cool but you dont get any feedback from them so you dont know if youve pressed them enough or not.

i feel so stressed sometimes when i have to do things that i want to or when things dont seem to go as planned or at all. i lack motivation for things sometimes too........ one thing im really nervous about atm is starting driving lessons, it was quite nerve racking

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So its been a while since i last wrotesomething here, and thats mostly because a lot has happened since then. lol, Turns out i was right about my ex-gf, she did want me back despite her having a "bf" at the time who wasnt really a bf, more just someone to fool around with (as described by her). lol so im now back with her again.... which isquite weird because its something ive never done before. so im not quite sure how to handle it, it seems all my previous feelings are coming back a lot quicker than before so im finding it hard to hold back and be cautious because it really didnt make me feel good when we split up last tme, also i think the fact that i wasnt entirely over her had something to do with that. I really should tell her these things but im not too good at the whole sharing emotions thing. heh

work has been quite stressful recently, because im getting work im not used

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man, i went to a bbq last night and a girl i met there was soooo unbelievably cute it was rediculous. anyways long story short, nothing happened, never mind eh :p this also happened to be the night my ex seemed to have a break down and sent me 3 long texts about why her life sucks and why shes unhappy, lol. i tried my best to cheer her up, no idea if it worked tho lol, im still unsure of wheather she has any sort of feelings left, but thats probably my over active imagination running away with me again.

Also, note to self, having a sambuca contest 3 hours before work is NOT a good idea, at all. (I am so not doing that again.)

anyways as the post title says this is actually a combination of 2 posts, the one above and the one below, which is actually a post i posted a week or 2 ago but it got lost when i changed hosts, twice. (thats also a long and complicated story lols).

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So, after upgrading wordpress and having it annoy me so much with general things like menu's being all over the place, themes not really working right and bugs stopping me from getting into the admin area, i decided to start over, i i deleted my old wordpress installation and started a fresh one, and then just imported the posts from the previous blog, which is handy.

Anyways, as you can see there are a lot more features now one of the big ones being a theme change, which didnt actually take all that much hacking to get it to look right. another big change is the sidebar is now based on widgets instead of hard coded plugins, I used to hate widgets but now i dont seem to mind them so much, the only thing that i still find annoying about them is there is a limited amount of

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So, i was wrong about money, it seems that it hasnt actually made me any happier after all.

Life is stupid sometimes. I hate the fact that I dont actually have any money to spend despite having a job/business. Is life really this crappy, even with money? wtf @ that.

Also I think im just feeling a bit depressed right now, most liekly due to the lack of female company *shrug* I dont even know what to say now. I hate debt. I miss laura. 

I think the fact im having trouble seperating things like business and personal, plus the lack of confidence i still have for some unknown reason. I hate stress, im usually good at dealing with it, but not recently, i hate it. i need somewhere to go and relax for like a week by myself, somewhere nobody knows, but i know that wouldnt

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So I decided to revamp my usb switchblade after seeing this guide, I wanted to intergrate it with my current setup. so after doing that, it was actually pretty easy as I already had a WinPE source on my drive. (plus its a really easy guide to follow anyways), anyways, i decided to redo the switchblade part of my pen drive, mostly because it was a bit buggy and didnt work sometimes because it was a really "hacked" implementation, so ive spent pretty much most of today creating a new implementation of it now, gone are the drive vars as they were uneeded and just caused unnessesary complications and made it less reliable. ive added so new icons for the u3 drive and the flash partition. All this is been done on my new 2GB titanium cruzer which is a lot more solid than the flimsy plastic

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so i just updated to the new wordpress, i like the new colours, but cant say i like the reorganised admin menu, everything is all over the place, also i hate the fact that different plugins put thier options pages in different places, it just annoys me, plus the upgraade seems to have reset something in one of the plugins so now the sidebar doesnt look quite right.

And not to mention the rediculously infuriating widgets thing, I have a plugin to disable them, but it also disables the dashboard, which is quite annoying, but then the dashboard doesnt really look all that good anyways, tbh, i might look into making a plugin to change the locations of some things in the admin area.

In other news, I am totally bored with life. i thought money might make me a little happier but no, i think thats because im still getting over my ex. (something that will take me a looooong time).

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she was cool, and hot, and the funny thing is i thnk she actally liked me, which was weird, social status was/is pretty much everything in school, and she risked it all. i should have taken a chance really, i wish i could see her again, that'd be cool.

& yes i am a little drunk right now, hence the shortness of this post a the more than average probability that there are typos, and this keyboard is really crappy and hurts your wrist after typing for a while >.<

heh, life is silly.

lol, so ive recently been recovering from the breakup from my ex, i say recently, it was actually last november, but it always takes me longer than average because im abnormal. theres been so many things ive wanted t get out of my head or say to her, and i had an idea of writing them all out here just so i dont make a fool of my self and call her up and do it, but whenever i got in front of a pc, i couldnt remember half of them which is odd lol, they still come back at times, when something reminds me of her, like pretty much any song that mentions love or loss or anything even remotely relationship orientated, places we used to go or things we used to do or things i wished we did, yeah thats quite a lot, in retrospect im quite glad i didnt fall in love with her as much as i could have, that would have been really quite bad tbh. but im getting better tho, as the song associations fade

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Soo, the thing ive recently been busy with is work, yes work. At the minuite im making the transition from long term dole scrounger to Chief Executive officer / Managing Director (I havent quite settled on a title yet) of my own company, which is quite a jump :p

but its all good fun, HSBC have been cool about it, giving me a business account, complete with business credit card and a little fob to logon to secure internet banking.

I really should finish off the website thats been in the works for a while and make it live Will probably get some business cards printed off soon too, as well as maybe some branded clothing too, so that I look the part.

I would reveal the company details here but, well, we cant have you all spamming me now can we :p

my most recent

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